2nd day of August 2010. . . . . . .

Its been a while since i posted something on my blog. Well not really long if you consider that a fortnight to be a short period of time. While I was looking back at my diary to choose from a long list of articles, I thought this post should not be one of those cooked up stories revolving around one of those people I met somewhere or I saw or my perception about others or whatever. It been a while since I've been a li'l philosophical about the li'l things that have always enticed me. . . . . So here's a li'l twisted perception of a conversation with a friend that's been morphed to differ from my first article in my New diary.

Looking at all the empty pages in this new diary, I can feel the excitement already. Excitement to see what fills into these pages in sometime, even though I am not sure how long is this sometime.

I remember writing this somewhere yesterday, "Re-Reading Your own book is like time traveling to a place and time you've been before". I can't remember all the responses which few of my friends made when I posted it on a social network but one them was very interesting and well framed, It caught my attention. She said - "We are not exactly time traveling - but it's the memories of the past which replays in front of you, while you're being a spectator. Your past does the time traveling to meet you in the present".

While I am writing this thinking about that, I wonder, what I am writing in this page now will go on to be memories of today for tomorrow. Since time only knows to pass to be left behind, it's up to us to pick up those moments and move forward. What she said  makes perfect sense in here. Every time you open the book, you make these moments part of the present at that point in time.

But this acceptance of memories traveling to be part of the present, makes me wonder once again if the past really deserves a place in the present. May be it all depends on what memories we have captured in past. Do we really want those memories to be part of the present. Do we have a choice to make - whether, to let something from the past be part of the present or some part of the present be left behind with the past, every time we reopen the pages of history of our own lives. . . . 

Today, if I look back at the memories of My yesterday and let it be part of my today, only to make it a memory of the today for my tomorrow, which, when I look back once again, will only be the yesterday. My today may well be missing in the tomorrow for its filled with my yesterday. So every time I re read my own diary, I am letting my past overwhelm my present. . . . . 

On the contrary, When I time travel to the past,  to revisit those memories of yesterday, My present will be part of yesterday and once I am done with the rendezvous with my past, I am back in the today and my Today will always remain Today as Tomorrow's yesterday. . . .

Why we live the way we live . . . .

This is all but a copy paste post that i am about to present to you all. . . . its a story of one boy on road to being a man raising this question at the world. Let me start the copy paste act and see where this thing leads.

boy - small doubt - why we live the way we live ? ? ? ? ?

few people along the way liked it . . . yeah rite. they liked the question. 

I am not in mood to highlight the key words like the other posts . . . you have to bare the brunt of having to strain your eyes a li'l more to get the details.

Because we have learnt the art of living over million years...and not ready to go beyond our comfort zone to explore more - she said. . . somebody else liked what she said.

may be because we like the way we live :) - said another . . . 

boy goes upto the former and says - does that mean, we are leaving behind nothing new to learn for the future generation, for we are living the way we learnt from our past and our past doesn't belong to us . . . . Are we living somebody's life or is it ours? ? ? ? raises few more questions. Too many contradiction in my mind, its just one of them. . . 

one more comes up to him and says - Has Howard Roark gotten into you? - He was a famous character that most of the architects would be aware off and want to be like. . . . 

In the mean time some one who seems to be very content comes up with this - Its too much of a risk to explore other ways of living !!!!

Now the boy decides to  raise few more questions irrespective of knowing the answers - how did one learn to live the way he did live when there was no past to learn from? ? ? ??
did one live to leave behind a legacy for the rest to follow? ? ? ?
well few more questions ? ? ? ? - then he says to all - looking forward to more questions than answers.

She comes back and says - over years we have learnt from our mistakes and we still are learning. our way of life has been changing slowly, so slowly that its difficult realize during our lifetime. Its a never ending process so its more like we learnt from our past and are still learning. so we are leading our lives and not someone else's.

One of his friends who heard his question came up with this piece of information - Darwin's theory of evolution says, Every species carries a trait of previous generation of species.(GENETICS).Similar with actions, life, philosophy everything, even design. ....There is a TED talk by Ar.Bjarke Ingles, he explains it towards design. So again its the same old philosophy "Life is a journey".

When there is instincts you need no past - says the content soul.

Then another one comes back to say - Principle of life lies in these 3 words Past, Present, Future.
Past is history,
Future is mystery ,
the workmanship required to link History and mystery is the PRESENT...
PRESENT- can be fun if u like mystery and equally miserable if you don't. does this solve your questions boy.....

The boy listens to all and in a hurry says - The journey of life is it's purpose - "A great man" once said . . .
believed it so much that I put it on my profile. . .
Will elaborate later. .. . got to go now.

In the mean time there were few like the one here, who just heard the conversation and silently had fun - finally said - ‎:) and it was fun listening to all that :).. good question boy :)

And she says - why not ???

sometime later the boy comes back after doing a lot of things that is unnecessary to be known at this juncture and says - let me just move away from We to Me, Why I live the way I live.
Is there a way to live or should i live to know the way to live and If I have lived to know the way to live then Is there any point in knowing the way to live for I have already... lived the way I didn't know. . . . ? ? ? ? MIND FUCK. . . . 

That's the confusion. Is living the way YOU want to live the best option then? ? ? ? ? 

A young girl listening to all the big talk comes up to the boy and says -  U should mainly Live a Life to confuse people like dis..!!! Hee he hee.. :D

So the boy says - do not consider my words seriously, especially if you're confused. . . :) he walks up to the girl - makes her feel she's too small for the conversation by saying - A friend of mine used to say this in college - The more you learn, the more you know, the more you know, the more you forget, the more you forget, the less you know then Why learn ? ? ? ?

Haa ha haaa... I'm already confusd..!! :P - says the young girl and runs to momma !!!!

The boy thinks of all that people were telling him and responds to all - 

I would say the same to the way we live. . . . we have to learn n we have to live. . . .

'my dear friend' - what darwin said was his analogy of the way man lived till the time darwin could see . . . he never prescribed the way to live for the future generation. . .
I've seen the talk by Ar.Bjarke Ingles and the way he design is his way of designing, its not universal code for design. . . 

May be we just have to figure it out ourselves. . . . 

'howard roark' - Had he got into my shoes, I bet he'd be psyched out. . .'another one' - Just trying to figure out the same, the relation between the past, present n the future - Searching for the thin line. . . :)

'the silent listener' - Have more fun . . . 

'young girl' - don't be - you'll figure it out someday.

Indeed Boy,  it is going on like you said... :)
I n t e r e s t i n g  - said a friend of the boy.

an intellect comes up to the boy and says - Hey, listen boy, very interesting and diverse, how all of us think about living our lives, considered that we LIVE each n every day.
" I live the way i live my life", coz thats d way i design my life to be with the choices i make. I dunno if its a gud or... a bad design, honestly it doesn't bother me as much as it matters that I AM DESIGNING IT. :) and thus my learning happens.

Boy continues to raise more questions - Are you really making the choices or is it the choice is being forced on to you. . . . . Can't we live with all the choices, why choose one. . . . :)

LIVING is a way of being. and only u can choose how u wish to be. Or that you are a certain way because u already made the choice, else it woudnt be in you life. U can choose as many choices u want. (I dunno where this choose 1 comes from) Its easy to choose but can U live up to it is the question ??? Will u go the extra mile to make it happen?? Dats d reason your "to do" lists do not get done, our resolutions are so brittle , and worse in total denial. :)  - she says 

boy now putting on a fake mask of a mature man says - well coming to the bucket list - its always a never ending one atleast in my case. . .
I would definitely love to go for "that" extra mile - Provided the petrol cost doesn't rise any further. . . .
PS : Petrol - not to be read literally ! ! !

All in good vain, the girl says - LOL. Well. No one said it would be easy. Its a process of LIVING N discovery.
Agree wid u on the petrol note.:-)

A cynical optimist as she prefers to call herself says - A question to your question ..Why CAN'T WE LIVE THE WAY WE WANT TO LIVE?

Like a gentleman, the boy walks upto the cynic and says in her ears - another question to your question - Do we know the way we want to live? ? ? ?
In fact, it is these questions and the process of us finding the answers that's exciting than the Answer itself. . . .
remember- journey of life is its purpose.

Another girl walking past the two of them overheard the conversation and said to the boy who was, well, almost there at the threshold of manhood - of course......everyone does....thats a pretty easy one....for guys the most easy and the lazy way...girls usually varies with the type ......tumbaa tension bedaa boy!!! life and all events in life just happens u see.... no need to think too much....

At the end of it all "the man in the boy" says - yochane yaar madtha idaare - yellara thaleyaloo hula bidtha ideeni ashte . . . you've got the point but - I agree that all events happen by itself, then why is it that we end up our lives preparing for those events to happen. . . . :)

Just trying to keep the mind busy - not mine. . . .