the search. . .

Wat search ?!. . . i don't know, some kinda experiment to just see where i reach at the end of it all. so, where do i start - the search.

search - in literal terms means - Try to find something by looking or otherwise seeking carefully and thoroughly.

try means - make an attempt or effort to do something!

find - discover or perceive by chance or unexpectedly!

 something - a thing that is unspecified or unknown!

looking -  have a view or outlook in a specified direction!

otherwise - in circumstances different from those present or considered

seeking - attempt or desire to obtain or achieve

 carefully - taking care or paying attention

thoroughly - in an exhaustive manner. . .

hmmm. . . . let me just continue. . .with the BS!

now my search means something like this -[make an attempt or effort to do something!] to [discover or perceive by chance or unexpectedly!] [a thing that is unspecified or unknown!] by [having a view or outlook in a specified direction!] or [ in circumstances different from those present or considered] [attempt or desire to obtain or achieve] [taking care or paying attention] and [in an exhaustive manner. . . ]!

now have i understood the meaning of search?!. . . WELL, it means much more. . .or does it? is it getting complicated the more you try to understand or is it getting more diluted as you continue to search?! still the question remains unasked - What SEARCH?! or search WHAT? without understanding 'how' it is that we have to search for what we're searching for, how on earth can we go ahead and say it aloud, "the search for the meaning of life!" want to know more now. . . go ahead, now u know - how?! hmm, i guess how here is an answer and hence how. and not how?!. now that's about it. but if you wish to go on, then its.......

make means form (something) by putting parts together

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discover - Become aware of!

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unknown - stranger!

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outlook - general attitude to life

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circumstances - a fact or condition connected with or relevant to an event or action.

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attempt - an act of trying to achieve something!

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attention - the mental faculty of considering or taking notice of someone or something!

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exhaustive -  examining, including, or considering all elements or aspects

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 may you find the search for the meaning of life and let the world know and i'll be waiting! haha :)

two worlds . . . .

a moment here and a moment there, a step here and a step there. . . . thats how i live in a world of my own, can also be read a fantasy and real world . . . . .
if somebody gave me choice to pick one and leave the other, will i ever be able to make that call. i don't know. i can never be sure. why would i spend a moment here and a moment there. may be its because you need both in equal measure or else, one would never have fantasized or he who fantasizes may have never returned. with every passing moment we seek something, not really sure if we are sure of what we're seeking but nevertheless we seek. Its more of a question. until you find or get an answer, you can take solace in the other world.

BS. . . I know ! ! !

now if i end up posting this

did you guys miss ME! ! !

hmmmm!!!! hello folks. i am back after a long, in fact a really long hiatus. I am now here and don't know for how long, so as long as i am here, i am here to chill. I have got loads to share. i mean LOADS. I returned from a long ride across the country from the lowest plains to the worlds highest motor-able road. Yes we did it! from kanyakumari to kardungla. one month of rigorous riding in rain, shine and also in some pain. hmmm. . . I had a wonderful[cliche] time shooting pictures from 0 level to the top of the world.

And thus photography is what i am now trying see in a different perspective. what nonsense? I know!!!! what different perspective can there be to what you see in a photograph?! hmmm i realized it last night. In a conversation with a dancer, in the middle of a cold winter night at my home on the terrace. And he made an interesting comparison between a photographer and an artist. A photographer can reflect back what's for real while an artist is privileged to pick n choose what he wants from the reality to showcase. A photographer can NOT ignore the reality in which he's a part of while fantasizing while an artist can NOT be attached to the reality to fantasize. and THUS you have a frame.

Now the interesting part. Now there's a frame. I remember him telling me, how awe struck he was when he went to paris and saw monalisa! It was not what he saw in monalisa that caught his attention but the large painting opposite of her. It was colossal. That was art! for him. He wondered why monalisa was more famous than what he thought was a better artistic expression, staring at the frame opposite her. 'May be that's precisely what monalisa herself is wondering staring at that painting on the opposite wall and thinking - why you all jimmies staring at me', i told him.

The audience cannot expect anything from a painting, it has to be accepted the way its presented. Nothing is for real. At the most you can 'try', to imagine what went through the artist's mind while he stroked what you are staring at. just try! You're entitled to let you fantasy fly. But when you look into a picture you find yourself in a much easier place to be. You seem to believe this frame could have been better, the photographer could have done a li'l better with a li'l adjustment here n there. But who would ever understand and accept that the photographer was at that moment, in a position to just be able to do what you're looking at, nothing better nothing worse. If he could've done anything different you'd be staring at something entirely different.

Awwww w w w Reality ! ! ! ! 










OOOhhh h h h h Fantasy ! ! ! !

that's all folks ! ! ! ! !